I Just Found This…

If I were to let you go – would I survive? Smoke filling my lungs, coughing out asymptotes curving with no end, the space between half way gone, and half way here – what is our equation? Empty space filled, parallel universes sprawling out our story. It does not live in this plane, or does it?

Calculate, divide, tear – generate some concept, mathematically playing numbers, into the perfect octave, in some place and time that ends with no beginning. The dance of brainwaves, escaping through the wormhole, left leg reaching, right light still here, the numbers continue clicking.
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I was looking into my drafts and discovered this. I enjoyed it and thought I would share. Maybe I will add more to it at some point and edit it. I don’t know. This post is basically to get out some lingering drizzles that are floating about in my head.

Random reads.

Just read this one…

An Unexpected Ass Kicking

Read these two earlier.

Human cycles: history as science

32-Year Study Shows How Geeky Kids Become Happy Adults

Moms gone wild: ’40-year-old reversion’

Have read this several times and my mind still says this, “What the Hell???” Yes, I used a curse word and I confess my brain has more than three questions marks. Now I understand needing to rediscover yourself as a “freed up mom” and all. What I do not understand is to seemingly go backwards. I am not intending to sound judgmental I truly do not comprehend why a 40 year old woman wants to go around doing drugs and hooking up with college guys. I didn’t want to when I was 20 and I sure heck do not want to now.

I do not get “sexting” at all… at all. However, I am not a big texter anyway so I guess I would not want to be a sexter either. Nor would I want to waste my time trying to think of sexy type things to say because I am not good at that either and I am positive I would end up sexting something like, “You so sexy – me do you long time” while laughing hysterically, then texting “Oh, I got to pee!” Yeah, me so sexy. Lol! Ok, I will stop with that.

I tweeted this next one the other day, but it is worth another share.

Can Anything Save Us From Flaming And Trolling On The Internet?

Anyone else like to sit around and watch all the flights over the U.S.? It is rather calming sometimes and the planes are yellow! When you click on them they are red! Yellow and red my happy colors! Flightradar24 

I guess I am finished with my mind dumpage for now…

Healing through music, openness of the heart – drift into peace. Find comfort in these swells. They swell as water over the mind, body, a spirit thirsty, decaying in a drought – slowly come to life. Flowers brush lips a fresh wind blow, dew kisses upon a sweaty brow. Sink deeper in pollinating dreams, landing on the flutter of bees wings – fly out to breathe again. Anew glow fill murky eyes, tears consume in drowning air – engulfed under the fresh sight. Hue captured this heart. Escape from crusty flesh, skin soft – cleansed in sparkle. Undone, unwrapped folding down in light – a magnificent embrace.

(That came out while listening to the song below. I am not sure if I am finished with it yet, we’ll see.)

Mishmosh Sciency Posh

Yowza! Sometimes songs just say the darnedest things. I listened to this song a hundred times while in the store earlier this evening. Why do people look at you as if you are doing something wrong if you are wearing headphones and iPod shuffle clamped to your shirt, but they do not seem to care if someone is on the phone or texting? Possibly it is what I do while I am listening to my music… maybe I am dancing all over the aisles and do not even know it because secretly I am a C.I.A. sleeper agent masking around as a Looney tune. It is quite possible that I am a cartoon character and did not know it also! Egad! What am I?

Pay no mind to me, I was sucked into an episode of Dark Matters earlier and it made my imaginations run wild. There are some days I should not go onto the Science Channel. I am contemplating on whether I should stick with watching the Olympics. It is currently on in the background. However, I am feeling very much drawn to TED. I have planned on watching Transcendent Man a documentary about Ray Kruzweil for a few days now. Have yet to do it. So many things to watch so little time, unless we actually do live for eternity – if that is the case I will need to run along and get some supplements and change my entire diet to prepare for nanobots to come into my blood stream and fight any disease that may evolve in my system for the next, I don’t know billion eternity years.

Off to TED and TEDx researching mindfulness… for the moment.

TEDxBoulder – Greg Burdulis – Migration of Mindfulness – Cave to Corporate America

Allan Jones: A map of the brain

Martin Seligman: The new era of positive psychology

I will be having positive dreams this evening – if I sleep that is!

Good night! (or Good day! Whichever, I wish you good.)

New “Loop Action” Here We Go!

I will go into a mind dump here and see what happens…

Designing for the Future Book (Video of Craig Mod. Aaaaa! Awesome!! Just found him today.)

Why There Are 24 Hours in a Day

Why the Knotted Language of DNA Sounds Like Music

Alaska northern lights sequence

Into the wild: cultivating the next generation of American scientists with Project Aether

Artist Heather Dewey-Hagborg Uses DNA Surveillance To Swipe Your Genetic Identity for Art

Missed these. Say Happy Birthday to Antoni Gaudí With These Eye-Twisting Designs (Lovely)

Marrying Tech and Art

Went to these too.

Seven Things Extroverts Should Know About Introverts (and Vice Versa)

SWARM 

Scott Sona Snibbe (Interactive art)

Visual Complexity 

I had to stop myself from getting obsessive about some of the Tech art sites. (I only shared a few.) It makes me scream giggles and clap with excitement. So freaking cool!!! I know, I know I can be a nerd. SO!

Come with me, come with me, my sweet lovely, on a trail of make-believe and reality. We will spring into a fancy new dimension, that used to be all fantasy of optical illusions. Here we trip into the past pulling it into the future. Ideas, dreams, visions of grandeur morphing a new existence! Oh, I love the future and past, embracing full present tense walking on the clouds of space waiting on happenstance. Giggle That was fun.

Speaking of happenstance…

I am stuck on French things currently, not sure why, maybe it’s me enjoying my name Angélique supposedly meaning “Messenger of God.” I just like saying it repeatly sometimes to remind myself of what my name is. I forget my name sometimes. Hee hee  It is quite easy to fall into Angel and think nothing more, but I do have four additional letters to my name. I like to say “ique” repeatedly as well. Somewhere in the middle is the le point du jour. (leuh pwahn doo joor) I found it much more fun to say than aurore, they are both fun to say.

Love, love, love, hum-hum-hum don’t know what she is singing and I do not care…la la la

Appreciating The Doodle

I love the word doodle. I so enjoy words that have double letters. It goes along with my double number love as well. Such as 11, 22, 66, but my all time love is eight. However, you will not see me use 88. No, no you will see 8∞. Eights always float into infinity for me. Love  me some ∞!

Today’s Google Doodle was this fabulous piece.

Which of course, led me into a search of the grand artist. I meandered onto Why is Google honoring Gustav Klimt with a golden doodle? Then, leading me to clicking on this Google Doodles you’ll never see. And absolutely leading me to a page that I frequent when I get into my image seeking, and desire to repeat the word Doodle, loop. Doodles

I find great pleasure in discovering new information, being reminded of old special interests, and sealing my eyes upon such interesting doodles. I went to Wiki to see what I could find about the word doodle – I found this inticing.

The word doodle first appeared in the early 17th century to mean a fool or simpleton.^[1] It may derive from the German Dudeltopf or Dudeldop, meaning simpleton or noodle (literally “nightcap”).^[1]

NOODLE! A doodle, a google, a boogle, a woogle, a zoogle, a yoogle…

I am saying “Dudeltopf” repeatedly now. So what about Gustav Klimt? Well he is an interesting fellow. www.iklimt.com

Oh, a fun word Jurisprudence, speaking of fun words Biocentrism is a fun word too. What else is quite entertaining? A Theory of Everything? (!!!)

How about an Elegant Universe? Want to know more about Brian Greene, here you go Brian Greene Professor of Physics & Mathematics, Columbia University

I know, I know I am all over the place. I had to let some of this out. My brain is taking over my fingers and not filtering anything! Ha!

So um, I just listened to this Omnia - Alive with lyrics. Fascinating indeed, indeed. Woooo! Didgeridoo… 

A Song of Enchantment

by Walter de la Mare

A song of Enchantment I sang me there,
In a green-green wood, by waters fair,
Just as the words came up to me
I sang it under the wild wood tree.

Widdershins turned I, singing it low,
Watching the wild birds come and go;
No cloud in the deep dark blue to be seen
Under the thick-thatched branches green.

Twilight came: silence came:
The planet of Evening’s silver flame;
By darkening paths I wandered through
Thickets trembling with drops of dew.

But the music is lost and the words are gone
Of the song I sang as I sat alone,
Ages and ages have fallen on me -
On the wood and the pool and the elder tree.

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Here I go ending with more fun.

Yellow waves all around us
I know we have to share the so amazing trip we gonna do
Don’t be afraid all day, I stay with you

Lost In A Writing Mind

I have taken a slight break from my other information consumption’s. I have not eliminated them completely, but I have not been staying with my brainy, techy, mathy, sciency type of loves lately. I do hope they forgive me. As soon as my life gets settled I will be running full force into their arms and letting all of their genius manipulate my brain into accepting the wonders and bewilderment of things I long to understand and enjoy.

Ok, ok I will share a few (only a few) with your complete insistence, of course. TED Reuben Margolin: Sculpting waves in wood and time. TED Ed How to Speed Up Chemical Reactions (And Get a Date) because it is important to know how to get a date using chemical reactions.  The Wacky History of Cell Theory Alright, I admit I really like watching animated educated videos. Don’t judge – I consume all types of coolness. We can learn from anything! Wired Science, I miss you Have Your Genome Made Into a Piece of Art.

Marilyn Monroe and Aspergers Syndrome?

I do not know if Marilyn was on the autism spectrum, but I do know that I connected to her for several years. I read everything I could about her, I had posters, life-size cut-outs of her, calenders, pictures, stamps, picture books, that is all I can recall now. I wrote a poem for her, but have no idea what I did with it. I felt for her, and her life. My heart hurt for her and in a way she and I were friends, during a very lonely time in my life. Looking back though, remembering all that I read about her, it would seem the chances were high that she was an Aspie girl.

Why we fool ourselves into optimism

Tali Sharot: Cognitive neuroscientist

Her TED talk is in the CNN article so I did not link to it.

Psychology Today stuff I read this morning. (Been up for a while all is quiet, and insomnia can be your friend. )

Inner Marriage

How to Break the Cycle of Poor Choices and Feeling Bad

20 Uses for Self-Compassion

How Science Writing Can Save Lives

Octet

You don’t love me at all? O God. O Shit.
You still ‘respect me.’ Thanks. I value it
About as much as one who’s asked to use
A second hat when he’s in need of shoes.
Since, I discover, my own self-respect
Is quite enough to keep my spine erect
Why is it true my ample self-affection
Will not suffice to buoy me in rejection?

Vikram Seth

Started reading his poetry this morning because of this quote below.

“Is it not love that knows how to make smooth things rough and rough things smooth?” 
― Vikram Seth, An Equal Music

I fell in LOVE with this next quote this morning. I have not read anything from Jhumpa Lahiri, but I will be doing so in the near future.

Vintage Books & Anchor Books (Awesome page! I share their stuff all the time.)

“Fiction is an act of willfulness, a deliberate effort to reconcile, to rearrange, to reconstitute nothing short of reality itself. Even among the most reluctant and doubtful of writers, this willingfulness must emerge. Being a writer means taking the leap from listening to saying, ‘Listen to me’.”
― Jhumpa Lahiri

Move Me Why Don’t You?

I am greatly inspired today. Many of my petals bursting out with range of something – something I don’t know.

I love this video of Anne Sexton.

Anne Sexton at home – 1 (VOSE)

I think if Debra Winger made a movie playing Anne Sexton she would do an amazing job.

Sylvia Plath – Mirror

Sylvia Plath reads from ARIEL (1)

Through my adventures I discovered this The MLK that’s never quoted. I thought someone may need to hear it today. Maybe it’s you.

I am not sure why I am on this loop, but I do know that I am trying to connect to people. I am trying to feel connected to humanity. I am seeking those who operate in their vulnerabilities, and who never denied the fact that they were fully human and not capable of perfection. Changing the world whether through grandiose ways, or simply in your living room only takes a small thing – being vulnerable.

Sharing in humility, exposing fears, reaching out when you feel like no one is reaching out to you, small tasks. Conversations with those you didn’t know existed, finding a common ground, seeking to empathize, feel, walk, speak, see, what someone else is going through. I think I feel very alone right now in a specific situation (several actually), but I am finding comfort with people who share similarly in my situation. Their act of reaching out even through a short comment on my blog, was enough to make me feel connected. Understood. Relating to my fellow humans. No matter what, I have to accept the fact that I am part of the human race. I cannot trick myself into believing I am truly alien – in all ways.

I guess that is why I am seeking to listen to those who broke right in front of us changing our world in many incredible ways. I am not seeking to change the world in some grand way, I am seeking to feel like I belong in it… somewhere, by someone. My heart seeks to be understood through loving, kind words, and a bit of encouragement that someone else knows what I am talking about. At least not brush my feelings off, at least try to understand. The confirmation that I am not alone, no matter how many times my brain tries to tell me that I am. No matter how many times I feel completely alone around people – someone out there knows and can relate to what I am feeling.

I am not sad, I am only searching for balance.

You know that I am all over the Google Doodle today and LOVING reading about Alan Turing. I so enjoy consuming the history of people’s lives.

Google’s impossibly clever Alan Turing doodle

Randy Pausch Last Lecture: Achieving Your Childhood Dreams

A Time to Break the Silence – Rev Dr Martin Luther King, Jr 

I love to say Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego repeatedly. It’s fun.

But if Not – Martin Luther King, Jr.

Mahatma Gandhi : Film : MAHATMA – Life of Gandhi, 1869-1948 (5hrs 10min) (I have not watched all of this yet. I really need to wait until I get settled to watch it.)

For some reason this song is playing in my head The Smithereens – A Girl Like You. Wow! I haven’t listened to The Smithereens in forever, I wonder what triggered this song… Who knows. OH! I used to love the next song! I really loved it after discovering the power behind the lyrics. (I was a teenager and my friends thought I was freak because I insisted that they did not sing the song unless they knew what it was about. I did that with a lot of songs. :-/)  Midnight Oil – Beds Are Burning I can totally do his voice. I saw it on the youtube thread and had to listen and share.

Multidimensional Creativity

I love multidimensional creativity. It works well for me because I see everything as a giant canvas, filled with music, ideas, poems, stories, inundated with dances sculpting through nature, carved into the heavenlies, dripping ink down through our hearts painting into our DNA exploding through as many creative outlets as we can think of. It includes the art of computer programming, graphic design, and magical apps that flow through our sensory circuits and all consuming scientific wonderments and mathematical artistry.

Nothing is left out.

I get extremely excited when I see technology transforming the ideas of what is thought of as traditional art forms. While I appreciate the wonders and grandness of traditional art forms, I am drawn to pushing them to new heights and exploring what humankind can create with their imaginations!

I wish I could create the vision I have for a book to be completely interactive, from hardcover to reaching into apps, video art, being able to create the music that is playing in my head while writing words and allowing the reader to change and feel emotions into their own music reading the words… more like feeling, seeing, glowing the words into something. What, I do not know. Yes, there is math concepts involved. That would be so awesome!

I would love a book to be created that is hooked up to a community of fans who morph their ideas and visions into a living breathing work of art. It could be through a website or app on an iPad, (I do not mean to exclude other techy devices that one could create apps for, I just like seeing the word iPad by itself.) I don’t know I am trying to describe what is in my head and it is kind of hard to do. It is also frustrating because even if I could get my vision down I do not have the knowledge to do it on my own or the resources. (Um, like an iMac or Mac Pro! I would be happy with a MacBook Pro I am not picky. Ha ha ha )

I will stop my imaginations before I get too wild.  If only I were a computer-techy-graphic art-mathematical-musical-illustrating-writing-poetic-completely loaded with funds and time-genius. Sigh…I am not and I will have to leave my imaginations to limited websites. Oh, I forgot philosophical-spiritual guru-neuroscientific mastermind-able to connect all sensory pleasures into the hearts of all – completely linking them to my BOOK! I am planning on taking over the world! Alright, I am kidding. It is fun to imagine.

Seriously, I have been thinking about this a lot lately and have read some interesting things. I get so excited thinking about the future – I can’t help myself. I read several things the other day, but got sidetracked and can’t locate them. I will share what I remember and what I already had stored in my drafts. I also have another collection of links about Divergent Thinking, I will probably share tomorrow. Still pondering-connecting-purging-morphing-singing…I heard this song The Moody Blues – Nights In White Satin today and I have to say I do not get tired of it.

How Amazon is changing the rules for books and movies

Teens Getting Creative With Web 2.0 Tools: Multi-Dimensional Way of Communicating Is Evolving (I wish we could gear our culture into doing a better job at helping teens be innovative in areas of creativity, and environment issues.)

Life as a Multidimensional Creative Being

Sigur Rós: Ekki múkk (moving art)

Media Arts Education

Technology in the Arts

SEEDMAGAZINE.COM (creativity section)

Science Art & Technology 

The Future of Science…Is Art?

Connecting Science and Art

Mishmosh With a Side of Dancing

I am quite focused today and accomplishing some major feats! Operation “Big Move” in progress. (Moving approximately 760 miles from current residence.) In my spare time I have been wandering the Big Think website and watching/reading some interesting things.

Welcome to Your Future Brain: Inside David Eagleman’s Neuro Lab

“I Am Whatever You Say I Am”?

How Technology Can Help Us Find Happiness

Coursera, edX, Khan Academy, UoPeople – Are the Floodgates for Free Education Finally Open?

Savant Syndrome: When Brain Injuries Create Geniuses

Discovering Electromagnetism

“I Trust You” – More Difficult (and more powerful) than “I Love You” (Excerpt below)

“When we permit ourselves to trust deeply, we are letting another human being into our heart and into our soul. We have accepted the good intentions of another so deeply that we allow them to step so close to us that we cannot protect ourselves any longer. Now we are wide open and when we meet another in the infinite expanse of true vulnerability and profound intimacy, the experience is identical to mystical intimacy with God or Spirit.

No boundaries, one Self, infinite freedom, and joy beyond measure. This kind of trust is more profound and more significant than any love that is merely personal. In this truly transpersonal love, through our relationship with the other, a new inner world opens up. This love, based on trust, is a sacred world of boundless freedom and infinite space. No fear whatsoever of loss or betrayal. This love means I’m always with you, forever.”

Hmm…that is all I can say to the last paragraph of that post. So I am off! Had my momentary break must get back to work. Whoop! Whoop!

Saw this on my fb feed, yeah diggin’ it. Love me some INXS. (Great video.)

INXS - Beautiful Girl 

Sometimes I just like some twangy music. Cannonball - The Breeders was a great song to dance to back in the day…still is. I am dancing.

Feeling Connections

Throughout my life, I have had times when I felt deep cosmic-type connections – quite honestly, they have not been with many people. One in particular has been with the moon. How appropriate the moon is reflecting such a lovely glow this weekend, while I am pondering connections. It feels as if it is calling out, smiling and telling me things will be ok. Perigee “Super Moon” on May 5-6, 2012

I feel this connection with the ocean, the sky, pretty much anything thing in nature. I have the same connection “feel” with words and numbers, of course numbers are all throughout nature so it seems a natural connection. I feel heard and understood by them. I am not sure if this is projection, but it has brought me comfort.

There have been times when I have felt connected to people. Certain people who crossed my path and I felt like I knew them, or we had some sort of understanding of each other. I have only had one time when I connected on multiple levels that felt unexplainably cosmic-like. It was a strange feeling – as if we were to never speak a word to each other everything was still understood. It felt as if they could read my thoughts – the deepest form of empathetic connection I have ever experienced.

I called them friend because I have no other word to describe it, but it is much more than friend. I could look them in the eyes with no pain, or have the feeling of being violated. Make sense? Again, I am not sure if it was projection on my part…but I don’t think so. If it were projection I find that odd that I would pick this person to start projecting on when I had not done that before… Too many questions I can’t think about this now.

I am thinking about connections because 1) I have felt disconnected lately. 2) My mind is racing about different forms of communication. 3) How our global connections are rapidly developing. This is an amazing time to be alive. There is so much information on one hand and still the ability to live in solitude on the other. We are now able to find connections to those who relate to us in a better way. We are able to experience so many different points of view. We are able to watch science and technology at a whim. These are days full of new inventions, ideas, philosophies, art, awesome changes right at our visual disposal.

Yet, we seem to be at a standstill in certain forms of creativity. It feels like it is missing something. It could be the feel of similar algorithms being pumped out losing vulnerability and authentic exposure. I don’t know! I find it all so intriguing. From a sociological point of view, it is fascinating to watch how people respond to the exponential changes happening in our world. I could go off into a rambling session here about robots, and privacy and such, but I will not. Personally, I am thankful for all of the changes going on I see it as a positive – it is a world I understand better.

For me it enhances my life experience. I just discovered that my one of my greatest fears of losing my teeth might not be an issue in a few years! Stem-Cell Dental Implants Grow New Teeth Right In Your Mouth Come on now that rocks! Did you know that “Statistics show that 70% of adults aged 35-44 years have lost at least one permanent tooth.” I cannot find the actual study(s) for this or the true source so I am not sure how accurate it is, but there is always a little truth in fabricated tales.

I still have two baby teeth so I wonder what the stats are for adults losing their baby teeth. Hmm… My mind wanderings for the day. Happy Saturday!

Rory Sutherland: Perspective is everything

Frank Warren: Half a million secrets

Through the Wormhole – Is There a Sixth Sense PART 1/2

Through the Wormhole – Is There a Sixth Sense PART 2/2

Emotion Is Reversed in Left-Handers’ Brains (Well I am ambidextrous, I wonder what the results would be for those of us who can write with both hands? Hmm..)

Ok, Ok, Ok!

I do not know why I cannot remember this stuff, but I cannot. I went into looping about the silliest of things causing myself to go into a shutdown. I felt it coming after a post I wrote revealing things about my behaviors, then sharing stories/poems close to me, and feeling the anticipation of a post I wrote for today. As well as another post I am working through that will reveal more of me and reading a book that is tapping into many emotions.

It has caused me to be both happy and sad. Happy because of the confirmations and the good changes that I am making for myself. Bad because with these confirmations I have to work through my feelings that I am not quite sure how to articulate. It is hard to explain. It is good, but overwhelming. I am feeling more comfortable with my other blog face change, it is starting to feel safe again.Today has been a rampage of mixed emotions though. I am excited and happy about all of the blog posts I have read here. However, I do feel disconnected. I am in need of feeling grounded.Working on it! My brain feels a little fuzzy.

I did read some other interesting things today. Oh! The first one was just what I needed to read! It reminded me of Brené Brown: Listening to shame, (it’s talked about in the article) I wrote a post with her talks in it here. Brené Brown said that she had a “vulnerability hangover.” That is what I have been going through. Everything is fine I am just medicating my hangover.

Vulnerability, Difference, and Belonging

The Trust Molecule

Analytic Thinking Affects Religious Belief

Personal Growth: Identify Your Needs and NEEDS!

When in Doubt, Open Your Mouth

Our Malleable Minds

How Linux is Built

I am in the mood for some Natalie Merchant vocals…