I have an affinity for stars. I go to the cosmos and stare into the faces of stars when my lonesomeness and isolating feelings start to overtake my brain. They are such interesting objects that can hold my attention for centuries - stars.
I am having a particularly hard time today. I had some words spoken to me and other things that were revealed that have sent me into a spiral. I find it so confusing when someone claims to be helping me while saying at the same time how “difficult” I am. Is that really helping a person who is already diagnosed with self-esteem issues, an anxiety disorder, and a depressive disorder? Yeah… it does not feel like it.
Anyway, I have been trying to hold on to my positive feelings that started to manifest later last night, instead of allowing such things to affect me – it is hard. In my adventures today, one lovely Renee of Rendezvous With Renee posted this song.
I could have sworn that I shared a video from them. She is walking, there is a guy playing guitar, I cannot remember the song now. I know I have it in my drafts somewhere I must not have posted it. I thought I did though. Oh, well. It just bothers me when I feel like I have done something and I haven’t.
After several minutes of digging, because it was frustrating me, I finally found the post. It was lurking about in my drafts titled “Be Gentle – Ask About Their Story.” I abruptly ended the post - I do not know why. I do not feel like rereading to find out. Here is the song Grace Potter and the Nocturnals “Low Road.” (July 21, 2012 at 7:58 pm I have no idea what was going on with me that night.)
Funny I thought I shared this next song before too, but I cannot find it. I am not going into my drafts again. It has too many tunnels, twists, turns, and forks in the road that I am not up for today. Oh, sorry here is the song.
You know what, I am feeling better already. I am not falling for negative hooey today, nope. Instead I will share this song because, um… I dig it and it makes me sing and dance.
Ooh La La La La…. I think I am secretly from Paris.