Yesterday I discovered that Regina Spektor released a new song. She has a new album coming out. Yea! Can’t wait. I do adore her very much. I immediately went and bought the new song and have been listening to it over and over again because that is what I do sometimes. Listen for yourself Regina Spektor – “All The Rowboats”. This song tapped into my imagination in crazy awesome ways. I felt like I was part of every visual she sang about and was lifted into that world with her. I was dancing on the waves of each vibration of sound and lyric.
Regina is very special to me, I cannot remember when exactly, but one night I was unable to sleep. I ended up watching a show that I never watch and haven’t watched since. However, in the middle of the show they played this song Fidelity. I ran to my computer and searched for the song from only a couple lyrics I had picked up. When I watched the video I cried. I loved the black-and-white (I am obsessed, yes that is the right word, with black-and-white), I loved the video because I have done that a million times — I have sang to my invisible friend.
The lyrics spoke to my heart, and at the end of the video when the colors splashed on the floor then the two of them playing in the colors was just over-the-top greatness! It was a song that reminded me of someone very dear to me, and it was joy and pain to watch. I felt too much joy to stop listening to it so I continued and listened off and on to that song along with a few others. I ended up having to stop listening because the sadness was more than joy. Then a friend reminded me of her and my joy was restored.
All of her music taps into deep parts of me, and I experience awesome visuals and feelings when I listen to her music. Some of her songs are too deep and puncture places I am not ready to go. I love finding music like that. The kind of music where the lyrics and the sound reach in and pulls things out of you that you had no idea were there. The thing about music is that it helps you realize that your heart can be broken, but out of that brokenness great beauty can manifest. But you never know that painful beauty until you allow yourself to be punctured. Music can help expose things hidden in yourself that need to be dealt with, it has power to heal, and it can be pure blissful pleasure.
My friend also sent me these interviews of Regina Spektor that revealed what a lovely soul she is, and gave me some comfort as to how I see the world as well.